Adjusting to being back on track....
it's way harder than I thought it would be. I'm finding that time is a really big issue right now. But I can't let it get in my way. School's starting on the 17th and also I'm starting f/t on Monday. I'm going to be working M-F 3p-11p. Atleast I'll have a chunck of time from 11a-3p to get things done and work out, etc.
I'm finding it really difficult to stay within my calories limits that sparkpeople.com has for me. I have never counted calories before and I think at this time I'm just used to eating way too much... possibly 2000+ calories
If I try and say within the limit then I just end up going to bed so hungry that I can't sleep and then I just lay in bed dreaming of food.
Even when I'm driving I'm thinking about food. It's getting really 
I bought total (low carb, high fiber (sounds like an old person
)) and it does keep me full w/ a glass of lc oj too. Then lunch ...well this week I've been off. At hd we've been getting free lunches (atleast tues was subs, then wed was barbeque, and I'm a bit worried about today... it's pizza. I'm hoping that they will order a veggie w/ hand tossed or thin crust, but who knows) this week so it's just adding to the mix. And for dinner I take a bunch of romaine lettuce, some carrot sticks, and dressing. And apple for a snack and a yogurt smoothie. I really don't know what else to take as I don't really have the time to cook (or I'm just too lazy to cook for 1 person.) I have a bit of a hard time at the grocery store b/c I'm so used to eating frozen pre-made meals.
I like that sparkpeople does a grocery list for you. It really helped this last time.
Getting back into the exercise routine is taking longer too. I surprised myself when I came home after work and ACTUALLY did exercise. I know all day I'll say it but I don't think I really expect myself to do it.
That just sounds awful. As long as I push myself I think I can get back into it.
So... question?? What's something else that I can grab and take to work to eat?
Now on another thought. I think I'm having emotional/hormonal problems again. DH told me I need an attitude change last night. He said that I'm grouchy all the time and emotional and it's worst than the last time. Ok. I had no idea that it was 'worse'. That just made me
I know that I'm depressed I have been since a week before Christmas again. It's just that I feel that everything in my life is changing. Some of my friends graduated in Dec and I haven't seen them since before Christmas break
, today's my last day working at hd
, this is my last semester of school
, my jobs turning to f/t (now everyone says 'congrats' on that, but I don't feel happy about it. I don't even really want f/t I just need to be f/t).
Probably the problem is that I stopped taking Celexa in Nov. I just couldn't take it everyday any more. When I first started taking it I was like oh this is neat it will instantly change my mood, but as time went on I didn't like that feeling.
Also, I think the reason why I'm grouchy is that I usually just keep my real feelings hidden to the world. I always have a smile on my face and am happy, happy. It's sickning.